Frost - Marianna Baer
vodka to my own can of soda and passed the flask to Cameron.
Abby’s “date,” the guy who was playing Tilden in the play, had
canceled; it was the four of us Frost Housers, plus David, Whip,
and Cam.
Since we didn’t have a proper dining table, the seven of us
were seated around the coffee table in the common room.
Celeste wore a slinky silver evening dress and a thin black shawl
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over her shoulders. With Whip’s blazer and khaki pants with
embroidered whales, they made quite a pair sitting together on
the couch.
I went into the kitchen and started bringing out the plates of
food I’d prepared. As I brought out the last two, Whip was saying,
“I can’t believe they made this place a girls’ dorm. I was supposed
to live here. My great-grandfather, my grandfather, and my father
all did. It’s a frigging Spaulding Whipple Windham tradition.”
“It’s been around that long?” Viv asked.
“My great-grandfather lived here the first year it was a
dorm.”
“What was it before that?” I said, settling cross-legged on the
floor next to David.
Whip took a bite of lasagna, chewed, wiped his mouth, and
then said, “A family’s house—nothing to do with Barcroft. My
grandfather says during his time, all the guys made a big joke of
living here because there’d been some hysterical chick—I mean,
woman—living in it years before. Like the chick in the attic in
Wuthering Heights.”
“Jane Eyre,” I said. “You know, Whip, it’s not really referred
to as hysteria anymore.”
“What is it now? PMS?”
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“Yeah. Right,” I said. My eyes met David’s. He gave his a
slight roll, then reached over and picked something out of my
hair.
Food, already? “Lasagna?” I whispered, appalled.
David grinned. “Kidding.”
“He told me this story,” Whip went on as I made a face at
David, “about how everyone was scared of Frost House because
of the rumors about the girl. So they pretended it was haunted or
some shit and got all these kids to come over.” He took a swig of
his drink.
“And?” Celeste said after a minute.
“And what?” Whip said.
“What happened?” Celeste asked.
“What do you mean?” Whip said. “That’s what happened.
They scared people and got busted for making some freshman
piss his pants.”
“Sounds like a good time,” David said. “Can you pass the
salad, Vivian?”
“Yeah,” Whip said, apparently not noticing David’s sarcasm.
“Anyway, it sucks they made it a girls’ dorm this year.”
“Everyone always thinks Victorian houses are haunted,” I
said, finishing chewing a bite. “When I was little, my friends were
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scared to spend the night because we lived in an old Queen Anne
and they thought it was creepy. It was so stupid.”
“Maybe that was just an excuse,” Abby said, “because they
didn’t want to spend the night with you.”
“Very funny.” I rolled a bread ball and shot it at her. We were
pretty much back to normal after our spat in the kitchen, but I
could tell that she was still mad I’d compared her to Celeste.
“What dorm are you in, Whip?” Viv asked.
“He’s in Franklin,” Celeste said. “It’s a nice room. All new
furniture. Really swank. I think the mattress is new, too. Good and
bouncy. Not like the terrible ones we have here.”
Whoa. I glanced at David. He was frozen, his fork halfway
between his plate and mouth.
“So, what type of ‘project’ are you guys doing?” Abby asked
Celeste and Whip in a suggestive tone.
“It’s for rel-phil,” Celeste said. “We’re each other’s gods.”
“You’re what?” Abby said.
“We each have to dress the other one as our idea of a god.
Then take a photograph, write a paper about physical
representations of gods, blah, blah. Whip’s going to be naked.”
Whip’s eyebrows shot up. “Come again?”
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“My god does not wear clothes.” Celeste reached over and
tugged the lapel of his blazer. “Especially not whale pants.”
I was thoroughly amused by their interaction; but the look of
horror on David’s face told me he wasn’t.
Whip wiped his mouth with the back of his hand. “I’ve got
nothing to be ashamed of. But there’s no way I’m letting photos
get out that might ruin my political career.”
“Are you serious?” Celeste said. “That would be your
objection? Oh, you are so getting naked. I already have this idea
for body paint I want to put on you.”
A loud clattering came as David reached to put his plate on
the coffee table and somehow knocked off a tray of cheese and
crackers.
“Damn,” he said. “Sorry.” He began collecting the things that
had scattered on the carpet.
I stood up. “More lasagna, anyone? While I’m in the
kitchen?”
“Sure. Great food, Leena,” Cameron said, handing me his
plate.
“Leena’s my god,” Viv said to the room. “She can cook, build
furniture, fix her car, and tie a knot in a cherry stem with her
tongue.”
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“You’re so modest, Leena,” Celeste said. “You make it seem
like you’re just another pretty, blond prep-school student.”
“That’s nice,” Abby said, turning to Celeste with a laser glare.
“What?” Celeste said. “I just meant that you’d never know
she was so talented because she doesn’t talk about herself.”
“As opposed to you,” Abby said.
“That’s okay. I know what Celeste meant,” I interjected.
“Who wants a cupcake?”
“Damn right,” Celeste said to Abby, ignoring me. “I know I’m
talented and ambitious and if I work hard, I’ll be successful. And I
don’t think there’s anything wrong with saying that. Guys get
away with bragging all the time.”
“You don’t know,” Abby said. “Anything could happen.”
“What’s that supposed to mean?” David asked.
“Coffee?” I said.
“What I said.” Abby crossed her arms. “Anything could
happen that would mean Celeste isn’t some raving success.”
“Look,” David said, “if you’re implying what I think you’re
implying, that’s—”
“I think she’s just referring to life’s unpredictability,” I said,
my arms now loaded up with dirty plates to bring to the kitchen.
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“Abby, can you help me here? Please? I’m about to drop
something.”
In the lovely calm of Ms. Martin’s apartment, I took my time
rinsing dishes and getting more food for Cameron. While Abby
figured out the glass coffee-brewing contraption. I decided not to
tell her to lay off Celeste, knowing that she was probably still
feeling sensitive. The ironic thing was now that I thought about it,
Abby and Celeste did have some similarities. Abby completely
thought that she had the talent to be a successful professional
actress, that stardom was hers for the taking. She’d only jumped
on Celeste like that because she thought Celeste had dissed me.
When we got back into the common room, the mood had
completely changed. Viv was doing a dance like a football player
in the end zone, saying, “Oh, yeah. Oh, yeah,” waving her phone
in the air.
“What’s up, Vee?” Abby said. “Some great-uncle die and
leave you his fortune?”
“Better,” Viv said. “I got a message from my mother. You
know how we have that random Monday off in a few weeks?”
“Curriculum Development Day,” I said, handing Cameron his
refilled plate.
“Yeah. Do you guys want to spend the long weekend in New
York, sans parents? They’re going to be in Paris and totally
offered us the house.”
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“Really?” I said. Viv’s family has an incredible town house
that overlooks a huge park in Brooklyn. “If they won’t be there,
who’ll write our chaperone letters?”
She waved a hand dismissively. “Dad’ll write the letters. He
doesn’t care about rules like that.”
“Exdese!” Abby bounced up and down on the armchair as
well as the ancient cushions would allow. “Truly exdese!”
“Don’t get too excited,” Whip said to Celeste. “Viv’s house is
in an outer borough. Not the city.”
“Oh,” Celeste said. “I don’t think . . .”
A series of darting looks passed among us as we all realized
the awkwardness of the moment. Viv and I held eyes for a
second.
“Of course you’re invited,” Viv said to Celeste. “There’s
plenty of room. And David, you should come, too. Cameron will
be there so you won’t be totally outnumbered.”
“Thanks,” David said. “I have to see whether I signed up for a
Ride Club trip.”
“If you ladies want to get out of the suburbs, I’ll be at my
parents’ on the Upper East Side. You’re welcome to come visit,”
Whip said. “I can send a car.”
“You’re such a snob,” Viv said.
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“And what would it take to get you out to Brooklyn?” Celeste
poked Whip on the shoulder. Her touch lingered.
I sensed movement from my right and when I looked over,
David was standing and reaching for his jacket. “I just realized I’ve
got something to do,” he said. “Sorry. I totally forgot.”
In amazingly quick time, he was out the door.
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Chapter 14
AN HOUR OR SO LATER, dinner was over, Viv and Cameron
had banished me from the cleanup stage, and the vodka in my
head wasn’t helping me decipher what had happened. I couldn’t
sort out who had been mad or offended and why, and what
repercussions there might be, if any, not to mention what the hell
was going on with Celeste and Whip. Or Celeste and David. And
the trip to New York! God.
I paced around my bedroom, picking things up and putting
them down. When I walked by Celeste’s closet, I touched the
doorknob. The next time, I let my hand rest on it, curving around
the beveled glass. My hand turned and I heard the click of the
latch and felt the door moving toward me as my arm pulled back.
A shudder went through me as the air crept out.
Stepping away for a moment, I peeked into the hall to make
sure that Celeste and Whip were in the little room with the door
shut. Then I closed the door to the bedroom and locked it from
the inside. Following an impulse, I grabbed Cubby off the
windowsill.
I left the closet door open a crack so I’d have some light and
so I’d be able to hear any movement from the hallway. I sat on
the floor and shifted myself into the corner, partially covered by
Celeste’s clothes, leaving a space for the wedge of light to stream
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through. I leaned my head against the wall and breathed in the
cool, musty air.
I held Cubby up and looked in her eyes, which were catching
just a bit of the light. “That was quite a dinner party, didn’t you
think?” I said to her.
How on earth would I know? I said to myself in Cubby’s
accent. I wasn’t even there.
“Oh, right,” I whispered. “It got kind of messy. Boys, you
know.”
Boys, yes. They can be dangerous.
“But cute,” I said.
All the same, you need to be careful.
I ran my finger over her feathers, up and down the scalloped
ridges.
“It’s not like you have to worry,” I said. “You’re all nice and
safe back here.”
I’m not the one who isn’t safe.
I didn’t like the voice she used when she said that. Of course,
it was my voice. But at the same time, somehow, it wasn’t.
The bird tweet ringtone of Celeste’s phone disrupted
whatever tipsy weirdness I was indulging in. I quickly pushed
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myself up and out of the closet, brushing the clothes back into
place and shutting the door securely behind me.
Her cell lay on her dresser. David’s name flashed on the
screen. I touched the glittery blue case and thought of him on the
other end, pictured him shifting from foot to foot, the way he did,
hoping the call would be answered. The tweets stopped.
I put Cubby back on the sill, her eyes facing the window. For
once, I didn’t feel like having her watching over me. Then I sat on
my bed with my head in my hands. After a minute I stood, picked
up Celeste’s phone, and returned the call.
He answered right away. “Are you done with that jerk, or
what?”
“Oh, hi, David . . . it’s Leena. Not Celeste. Her phone was
right here so . . .”
“Oh. Hey. What’s up?”
“Not much. I just wanted to see if everything was okay. You
left kind of suddenly.”
“Sorry about that. Just something I forgot to do.” He paused.
“Is Celeste still with that guy?”
“Um, yeah.”
“Do you think I should come back over?”
“Come over and . . . ?”
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“I don’t know. Distract her.”
“I think she’s okay. You missed dessert. Cupcakes.” I checked
the time. Still fairly early. “I could bring one over to you there. If
you wanted.”
There was silence on the other end. “Okay,” he finally said.
“Sure, if you feel like getting out.”
I glanced over at the door to Celeste’s closet. What had I
been doing in there? “Yeah,” I said, “I definitely need to get out.”
When I got to Prescott Hall, I phoned from downstairs for
David to meet me to get parietals. He didn’t answer. I sat on one
of the scratchy, yellow ochre couches in the lounge and called a
couple more times, feeling progressively more idiotic about the
foil-wrapped cupcake in my hands and the nervousness that had
wriggled in my stomach on the way over. Obviously, we’d had a
misunderstanding. Or had he changed his mind and was now just
ignoring me?
I was about to give up when I heard the groan of a door
