Дэвид Лоуренс - Английский с Дэвидом Г. Лоуренсом. Тень в розовом саду / D. H. Lawrence. The Shadow in the Rose Garden
It was difficult for her to endure his presence, for he would interfere with her. She could not recover her life. She rose stiffly and went down. She could neither eat nor talk during the meal. She sat absent, torn, without any being of her own. He tried to go on as if nothing were the matter. But at last he became silent with fury. As soon as it was possible, she went upstairs again, and locked the bedroom door. She must be alone. He went with his pipe into the garden. All his suppressed anger against her who held herself superior to him filled and blackened his heart. Though he had not know it, yet he had never really won her, she had never loved him. She had taken him on sufferance.
This had foiled him (это сбило его с толку; to foil – /охот./ сбивать со следа /собаку/; одурачивать, ставить в тупик). He was only a labouring electrician in the mine, she was superior to him (он всего лишь электрик, работающий в шахте, она – выше его; to labour – работать, трудиться /тяжело/; labour – труд; mine – рудник; шахта). He had always given way to her (он всегда уступал ей; to give way – отступать, уступать; давать дорогу, пропускать). But all the while, the injury and ignominy had been working in his soul (но всё это время обида и унижение бурлили в его душе; while – время; промежуток времени; injury – рана, ушиб, травма; обида, оскорбление; ignominy – бесчестье, позор, унижение; to work – работать; действовать; метаться, бурлить, кипеть) because she did not hold him seriously (потому что она не принимала его всерьез). And now all his rage came up against her (и теперь поднялась вся его ярость по отношению к ней; to come up – подниматься, повышаться; усиливаться).
He turned and went indoors (он повернулся и вошел в дом). The third time, she heard him mounting the stairs (в третий раз она услышала, как он поднимается по лестнице; time – время; раз). Her heart stood still (ее сердце замерло; to stand – стоять; быть в каком-л. положении; to stand still – останавливаться; замирать; стоять смирно, неподвижно). He turned the catch and pushed the door – it was locked (он повернул ручку и толкнул дверь – она была заперта; catch – задвижка, защелка, щеколда). He tried it again, harder (он попробовал снова, сильнее). Her heart was standing still (ее сердце замирало).
“Have you fastened the door (ты заперла дверь; to fasten – связывать, скреплять; застегивать/ся/; запирать /на засов, защелку/)?” he asked quietly, because of the landlady (спросил он тихо, из-за хозяйки).
“Yes (да). Wait a minute (погоди минуту).”
This had foiled him. He was only a labouring electrician in the mine, she was superior to him. He had always given way to her. But all the while, the injury and ignominy had been working in his soul because she did not hold him seriously. And now all his rage came up against her.
He turned and went indoors. The third time, she heard him mounting the stairs. Her heart stood still. He turned the catch and pushed the door – it was locked. He tried it again, harder. Her heart was standing still.
“Have you fastened the door?” he asked quietly, because of the landlady.
“Yes. Wait a minute.”
She rose and turned the lock, afraid he would burst it (она встала и отперла замок, боясь, что он его сорвет; lock – замок; запор; затвор; to burst – взрывать/ся/; прорывать/ся/; вскрывать). She felt hatred towards him, because he did not leave her free (она ощущала ненависть к нему, потому что он не оставлял ее в покое; free – свободный, вольный). He entered, his pipe between his teeth (он вошел, держа трубку между зубов; tooth – зуб), and she returned to her old position on the bed (и она вернулась в свое прежнее положение на кровати; old – старый; прежний, бывший; position – положение; место; поза). He closed the door and stood with his back to it (он закрыл дверь и встал к ней спиной).
“What’s the matter?” he asked determinedly (в чем дело? – спросил он решительно).
She was sick with him (он ей опротивел; sick – чувствующий тошноту; чувствующий скуку, раздражение). She could not look at him (она смотреть на него не могла).
“Can’t you leave me alone (/неужели/ ты не можешь оставить меня в покое: «одну»)?” she replied, averting her face from him (ответила она, отворачивая от него лицо; to avert – отворачивать; отводить /глаза, взгляд, руку/).
He looked at her quickly, fully, wincing with ignominy (он взглянул на нее быстро, пристально, содрогаясь от унижения; fully – полностью, вполне; основательно; to wince – вздрагивать, содрогаться, отшатываться /от испуга, отвращения/). Then he seemed to consider for a moment (потом он как будто раздумывал минуту; to consider – рассматривать, обсуждать; обдумывать).
She rose and turned the lock, afraid he would burst it. She felt hatred towards him, because he did not leave her free. He entered, his pipe between his teeth, and she returned to her old position on the bed. He closed the door and stood with his back to it.
“What’s the matter?” he asked determinedly.
She was sick with him. She could not look at him.
“Can’t you leave me alone?” she replied, averting her face from him.
He looked at her quickly, fully, wincing with ignominy. Then he seemed to consider for a moment.
“There’s something up with you, isn’t there?” he asked definitely (с тобой что-то стряслось, не так ли? – уверенно спросил он; to be up – /разг./ случаться, происходить; definitely – определенно, точно).
“Yes,” she said, “but that’s no reason why you should torment me (да, – сказала она, – но это не повод для того, чтобы ты меня терзал).”
“I don’t torment you (я тебя не терзаю). What’s the matter (в чем дело)?”
“Why should you know?” she cried, in hate and desperation (зачем тебе знать? – воскликнула она в ненависти и отчаянии).
Something snapped (что-то хрустнуло; to snap – щелкать, трещать; захлопывать/ся/ с треском). He started and caught his pipe as it fell from his mouth (он вздрогнул и поймал трубку, выпавшую у него изо рта). Then he pushed forward the bitten-off mouth-piece with his tongue (затем вытолкнул языком откушенный мундштук; to push – толкать, пихать; to bite off – откусывать; to bite – кусать/ся/; piece – кусок; часть; штука, отдельный предмет), took it from off his lips, and looked at it (снял его с губ и посмотрел на него). Then he put out his pipe, and brushed the ash from his waistcoat (потом он погасил трубку и стряхнул пепел со своего жилета; to put – класть, ставить; to put out – тушить, гасить; to brush – чистить щеткой; удалять, смахивать /пыль, мусор/; brush – щетка; waist – талия; coat – пиджак). After which he raised his head (после чего поднял голову).
“I want to know (я хочу знать),” he said. His face was greyish pale, and set uglily (его лицо был землисто-бледным, застывшим уродливо = в безобразной гримасе; greyish – сероватый; grey – серый; set – неподвижный, застывший; to set – ставить, помещать; затвердеть, застыть /о лице, взгляде/; ugly – безобразный, уродливый).
“There’s something up with you, isn’t there?” he asked definitely.
“Yes,” she said, “but that’s no reason why you should torment me.”
“I don’t torment you. What’s the matter?”
“Why should you know?” she cried, in hate and desperation.
Something snapped. He started and caught his pipe as it fell from his mouth. Then he pushed forward the bitten-off mouth-piece with his tongue, took it from off his lips, and looked at it. Then he put out his pipe, and brushed the ash from his waistcoat. After which he raised his head.
“I want to know,” he said. His face was greyish pale, and set uglily.
Neither looked at the other (ни один /из них/ не смотрел на другого). She knew he was fired now (она знала, что теперь он рассвирепел; fire – огонь, пламя; пыл; страсть; to fire – зажигать; воспламенять/ся/; раздражаться, свирепеть). His heart was pounding heavily (его сердце тяжело колотилось; to pound – бить, колотить; сильно биться /о сердце/). She hated him, but she could not withstand him (она ненавидела его, но не могла ему противостоять; to withstand – устоять, выдержать; противостоять). Suddenly she lifted her head and turned on him (внезапно она подняла голову и набросилась на него; to turn – поворачивать/ся/; to turn /up/on smb. – набрасываться на кого-л.).
“What right have you to know?” she asked (какое у тебя есть право знать? – спросила она).
He looked at her (он посмотрел на нее). She felt a pang of surprise for his tortured eyes and his fixed face (она почувствовала взрыв удивления = ее до боли поразили его измученные глаза и застывшее лицо; pang – внезапная острая боль; внезапное проявление эмоции; to torture – пытать; мучить, терзать; torture – пытка; муки, агония). But her heart hardened swiftly (но ее сердце быстро ожесточилось; to harden – делать/ся/ твердым; закалять/ся/; ожесточать/ся/). She had never loved him (она никогда его не любила). She did not love him now (и теперь его не любила).
But suddenly she lifted her head again swiftly (но вдруг она снова быстро вскинула голову), like a thing that tries to get free (как существо, которое пытается освободиться; thing – вещь, предмет; существо). She wanted to be free of it (она хотела быть свободной от этого). It was not him so much, but it, something she had put on herself, that bound her so horribly (не столько от него, сколько от чего-то, что она сама на себя надела, что связывало ее так ужасно; to put on – надевать; to bind – вязать, связывать; обязывать /законом, договором и т. д./).
Neither looked at the other. She knew he was fired now. His heart was pounding heavily. She hated him, but she could not withstand him. Suddenly she lifted her head and turned on him.
“What right have you to know?” she asked.
He looked at her. She felt a pang of surprise for his tortured eyes and his fixed face. But her heart hardened swiftly. She had never loved him. She did not love him now.
But suddenly she lifted her head again swiftly, like a thing that tries to get free. She wanted to be free of it. It was not him so much, but it, something she had put on herself, that bound her so horribly.
And having put the bond on herself, it was hardest to take it off (и поскольку она сама надела на себя эти оковы, сбросить их было труднее всего; bond – связь, узы; hard – твердый, жесткий; тяжелый, трудный; требующий напряжения; to take off – снимать, сбрасывать). But now she hated everything and felt destructive (но сейчас она ненавидела всё и чувствовала себя разрушительной = жаждала разрушений). He stood with his back to the door, fixed (он стоял спиной к двери, неподвижный; fixed – неподвижный; неизменный; застывший /о взгляде, выражении лица/; to fix – устанавливать; прикреплять, закреплять; застывать), as if he would oppose her eternally, till she was extinguished (будто собирался противостоять ей вечно, пока она не исчезнет; to oppose – быть против; бороться, противостоять; to extinguish – гасить, тушить; уничтожать; убивать /надежду, любовь и т. д./; гаснуть). She looked at him (она посмотрела него). Her eyes were cold and hostile (ее глаза были холодны и враждебны). His workman’s hands spread on the panels of the door behind him (его руки рабочего раскинулись на панелях двери позади него; to spread – расстилать/ся/, распространять/ся/; протягивать; panel – панель, филёнка).
