Susan Dennard - A Darkness Strange and Lovely
“Monsieur Sheridan, where are you taking Mademoiselle Fitt?” Her eyes darted from my face to
Daniel’s.
“I’m takin’ her to . . . to talk.”
“You can talk here.” Madame Marineaux bared her teeth in a smile. “First you refuse to follow the rules of the dance card, and now you are stealing her from the ball.”
Daniel glared. “I wish to speak to her in private. I told you that before, but you seem to think you’re in charge of her dance partners.”
“And I told you, Monsieur, that I am her chaperone for the evening.”
“I’ll speak to her one way or another, Madame. We have personal things to discuss.”
My heart fluttered. Personal things? Love, perhaps?
“It is not appropriate,” Madame Marineaux declared, “for a young woman to wander off with a young man.” She raised her chin imperiously. “Monsieur Sheridan, please release Mademoiselle Fitt.”
Except I did not want Daniel to release me. I turned pleading eyes on Madame Marineaux. “Please, I will only be a moment. I promise.”
Madame Marineaux’s nostrils flared, and if it wasn’t for her wide grin, I would have thought she was angry with me. “I do not think that wise. I am your chaperone, after all.”
“But I know Daniel, and it will only be a moment.”
She stood taller, suddenly seeming to tower over me despite being several inches shorter.
“Mademoiselle Fitt, I absolutely insist you leave this young man and you come with me. Why, simply consider what the gossip mongrels will say if you leave with—”
“Gossip be damned,” Daniel snarled, pushing past Madame Marineaux. “She’s comin’ with me, and that’s final.” He yanked me onward.
As I stumbled past, I opened my mouth to offer Madame Marineaux an apology. But her eyes blazed so brightly that their golden sheen was almost yellow—and I was so startled, I forgot my words.
Daniel towed me down to the first floor with the bronze statues and their glowing candelabras. He guided me around a bend and farther down. At the stairs’ lowest landing, we passed a small fountain before hurrying into a round room with a velvet sofa at the center. It was a waiting room beside the theater’s back entrance. Daniel hauled me to the sofa and forced me to sit down.
He crouched on the floor before me, his face barely visible in the dim candlelight. “What is going on, Empress?”
“I do not know. You are the one who led me here.” I batted my lashes at him, hoping he would find this attractive.
It would seem he didn’t, for he gave a low groan and shot back to his feet. “Something’s not right.
You’re actin’ like a lunatic, and you have no memory of what happened earlier—”
“What happened earlier?” I puffed out my lips.
“That’s exactly what I mean. Something’s not right.” He stared down at me. “I’m gonna go grab our things and find Joseph. You”—he pointed his finger in my face—“are gonna stay right here. I don’t care who comes down here or who tries to talk to you. Tell them you’re waiting for the Spirit-
Hunters. Do you understand?”
“Yes.” I flipped at my curls. “I wait here.”
His jaw clenched, and his eyes ran anxiously over me. Then he lowered his hand. “I mean it, Empress. Don’t move.” Then he spun on his heel and marched off.
I watched him go until he passed the small fountain and I could no longer see him, then I smoothed my bodice, adjusted my skirts, and fingered the roses in my hair. I could hear the mazurka overhead, and I wanted to dance it. I wanted to glide over the dance floor with Daniel again—to feel the air on my shoulders and the men’s eyes on my face. . . .
With a sigh, I slouched back on the sofa—or I slouched as much as I could in my corset—and examined the elaborate floor beneath my slippers’ heels. Mosaic tiles spread out in wild designs, leading in all directions. That was when I noticed there were two hallways branching off this room. A wide hall to my right that must lead to the theater’s back exit . . . and then . . .
I twisted around to inspect the narrower hallway in the back corner. It slid off into shadows.
But then a shape materialized in the dark. Closer and closer it came into the room until I could finally see it completely.
It was a young man with dark hair and a perfect smile.
My stomach hitched, slamming against my corset. Memories came flooding back. Memories of an opera, of a handsome face, and of a night that ended in death. No—it’s not possible! It can’t be!
But it clearly could be, for I was absolutely certain that the young man smiling at me was none other than my old friend and suitor, Clarence Wilcox.
Chapter Twenty
I forced myself to stand. Forced my lungs to draw in air. Forced myself to move. “Clarence!” I shouted, and in half a breath I was tearing full speed after him.
Instantly, he lashed around and fled—away from me. Down the hallway.
I ran after him, speeding into the dim hall. I had tried to speak to Clarence Wilcox, hadn’t I?
Somewhere in the farthest corner of my mind, I remembered I’d tried to call him recently . . . and that there were so many things I wanted to say to him.
So faster and faster I went, my ribs slamming into my corset with each breath until, moments later, I found myself on a winding stairwell. I bolted forward just in time to see Clarence’s dark head vanishing down it.
I dove after him. My feet beat out a racing rhythm, and I descended as fast as I could. With each step, the strains of the mazurka faded.
It was as if something compelled me to keep chasing—to keep hoping that if I followed long enough, he would stop and let me see him.
He reached the end of the stairwell and slithered into a dark archway. The instant my foot hit the final landing, I darted into the darkness too. Candles flickered every twenty feet or so, illuminating the white bricks in the walls and low, curved ceiling. No mazurka hit my ears now, only the drumming of my feet on the flagstones.
“Clarence!” I shrieked. “Wait!” But he did not wait. I tried to push my legs harder, but the dress weighed a ton and the corset flattened my lungs. If he didn’t slow, then I would never catch up.
But I could not stop trying either.
As I hurtled past white bricks and archways, the air grew heavier—damper—until soon I raced through puddles that splashed icy water up my ankles and dragged at my skirts. It slowed me, and in two desperate heartbeats Clarence had faded from my sight completely. I rushed forward but instantly stumbled to a stop as the ceiling opened up. I was in a round room with more tunnels splitting off in each direction and candlelight flickering over each archway. Yet none of the tunnels were lit—none of them held any clue as to which path Clarence had chosen.
I stepped tentatively forward. My harsh breaths echoed in my ears, and my heart slammed against my ribs. “Clarence?” I called. “Where are you?”
A cold wind licked at me from the right. I twisted around. There he was, walking backward, his handsome grin wide and his fingers hooked and beckoning for me to follow.
“Wait!” I shouted. In an instant he was gone from sight.
I lunged forward, straight into the blackness. My eyes took only moments to adjust to the ever-
increasing darkness, to the ever-shimmering figure of Clarence Wilcox ahead. I was so focused that I failed to notice the changes around me. The way my footsteps rang out on the flagstones and the room opened up. The way the air smelled like long-standing water.
Or the way Clarence’s glowing form reflected beneath him like a mirror.
In a final push, I shoved all my strength into my legs. He was so close!
He stopped abruptly, spinning to face me. “If I cannot have you,” he said, his whispers snaking into my brain, “then no one shall.”
Before I could comprehend this statement, my foot flew through the air, towing me with it . . . and
I plunged into a world of ice.
The air punched from my lungs, roared from my mouth. Water clawed into my throat.
Water! I was under water!
I flung out my arms—I had to swim, had to break the surface, had to breathe! All of my air had been pushed out; my lungs had no reserves. But the dress was like a bag of stones. I strained and kicked and flailed, my chest burning, but no air kissed my skin.
And no matter how hard I fought, the crushing in my lungs didn’t lessen.
Then, in a blinding moment of terror, I realized that I didn’t know which way was up or down.
Everything was black. Everything was empty.
I clapped my hand over my mouth and squeezed out the last of my air, trapping the bubbles in my hand. Yet I couldn’t feel which way they rose.
I flapped my arms and swung my legs in what I could only pray was the right direction . . . but my lungs were filled with razors, and my muscles were drained. Frozen. I could barely throw one arm in front of the other, barely keep my fingers flexed. . . .
I was going to drown.
Golden light flashed before my eyes. The curtain—it had to be the curtain to the spirit realm. But I was not ready for it. I fought the water, fought the death I had walked into.
The light flashed more brightly, a yellow stream across my vision.
Then the water shifted and fresh cold swirled over me. It shoved my lips apart, rushing into my mouth, into my chest.
Someone grabbed my wrists . . . someone pulled me up. . . .
But whoever it was was too late. My world had already twisted into nothing.
“Empress, breathe!”
A force slammed into my belly, and I doubled up, coughing. Dying. Water sprayed from my mouth.
“Breathe, dammit!”
Hands clamped over my face, a mouth pressed against mine, and breath blasted into my throat.
Like a knife was in my chest, I choked on this air that was not mine. But then it came again, searing my lungs. My body convulsed, and with a desperate wheeze, my chest heaved.
Real air slid in. But it wasn’t enough.
“The corset is too tight.” The voice sounded like Joseph’s.
“Give me your knife, then,” Daniel said. “I’ll cut her out of it.”
“You cannot—”
“She’ll die, Joseph. Give me the goddamned knife.”
Then came the sound of ripping cloth . . . then the snap of breaking stays, until suddenly my ribs could move. My lungs could expand.
I coughed. Hands pressed to my belly, pumping. Water dribbled down the sides of my face. More coughing. More water, and then . . . more air.
I gulped it in, desperate and starving. It hurt, but I sucked in more and more. I opened my eyes, blinking as the world shifted into focus. A lantern beside me on wet flagstones . . . Joseph crouched by it with a white sack at his feet . . . and beams of light bouncing off black water.
